January 1st 2016 ~

    March 3rd, 2023: 5 years and 7 months, and you are still gone. Ever since you were gone, I was never okay. The harder I tried to forget you, the stronger I could sense you. Permeating back into everyday life was not tricky, but the real abyss stroke when everything everywhere resembled you. Your abrupt advents were not something I could control. Wherever I looked, you would be there, but whenever I sought you, you would disappear - just like a grid illusion. I would arrive at a dead end as trying to forget you included the recollection of you. Of course, our parting was planned, indeed inevitable, but I never expected such difficulty in breaking out from you.

    5 years and 7 months and a day. I decided to free myself from being constrained by you. Beloved, do not resent me, for I have never forgotten you for the past 5 years. Yes, you contain my happiest days; yes, you contain my grimiest days. Nevertheless, bigger challenges await me; Brighter days await me. With you holding on to my feet, I can step up no more. Thus I cross my heart with a determination that I will never look back unless I realize my great ambition of being rich enough to meet you again.